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Lord, you have come to the shoreline

May 1, 2009 | posted by Lars under , ,

Last summer, shortly after we both graduated from EMU, a good friend of mine went to Costa Rica for three months.  He had a job as a nurse lined up for the fall in Lancaster County, Pennsylvania and he wanted to learn some Spanish so he could care for his patients who wouldn’t be able to speak English.  He had been there the summer before, briefly, with the EMU cross cultural program, and had met a missionary couple with a goat farm who he arranged to live and work with for the summer.  On a beach outing to the Pacific while there, though, he drowned.  It’s difficult to articulate exactly how deeply Matt’s death rocked his communities, but the grief was searing.

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Two weeks ago, as we passed through Costa Rica, we had the opportunity to visit the farm where Matt lived and worked, high in the mountains between San Isidro del General and the Pacific Ocean.  The 7 km (4.2 miles) between the main road and the farm are, by far, the most rugged riding of our trip so far (we had to walk our bikes back down the mountain), but arriving there was beautiful.  We arrived after dark, drenched in sweat and several skintones darker with dirt, and it was as if we were entering another world.  I at once felt comfortable and at home, eating supper with Gerardo & Helen, conversing quietly, and washing the grime from my tired body.  We spent the evenings chatting in the house by intermittent light from the hydroelectric generator (we were visiting at the end of the dry season) and enjoying the peace of the evening stillness, and the day milking goats, hiking around the property, learning about the farm, and catching up on journalling.

It is an incredibly beautiful place, and Gerardo & Helen are at least as beautiful of people.  There was a very tangibly restful atmosphere there, which was such a relief from the touristy beat of Costa Rica.  It was a peace, I think, borne of a deep and easy connection to the land - a rootedness, if you will - that resembles, somewhat, a marriage.  Each is committed to the other for the long haul, and the chafing of trying to leave the farm behind and ”make something of yourself” is absent.  I’m gushing.  It was an oasis to be there, and I am thankful for it. I hope the pictures can describe this better than I am able.

As we left, we made our way back down the mountain and to the coast, stopping briefly at Las Ventanas, a little, rock-edged cove, lined with coconut palms.

That day, I had two songs rolling through my mind as I rode - “Señor, tú has venido a la orilla” (a hymn Gerardo & Helen remember Matt singing), and “Joy in the Journey,” sung by Full Table.


  • 7 Responses to “Lord, you have come to the shoreline”

  • On May 1, 2009 Katie Derstine wrote:

    just about an hour ago i was finally catching up on looking through all of your photos and wondered, when i got to the ones from the gorton’s, if we would get to read more about your experience there. i can only imagine the many emotions you felt during those days, and am glad to hear of the obvious love you developed for that place and the peace you felt while staying there. it was clear that matt felt that way about it as well, and it brings me much comfort to know that his last days were spent in a place so full of peace and beauty. seeing all of those pictures made me so badly want to be able to give you a big hug (it has been too long!), but i suppose i’ll just have to settle for wishing you continued joy on your journey. :) thanks, both of you, for all you have shared. love, katie

  • On May 2, 2009 Josiah Garber wrote:

    Thanks for these words. Many blessings as you continue your trip.

  • On May 3, 2009 Heidi Witmer wrote:

    Lars, thank you for posting these pictures and sharing about your time spent in Costa Rica. Lately I think more and more about Matt’s last months and where and how he spent his time. It’s important for me to remember that his time there was not filled with pain, but beauty, happiness, and I think, great peace. The mention of Costa Rica over the past months has always filled me with a feeling of dread, but I want to learn more about the beauty of life there. Blessings.

  • On May 3, 2009 Greta wrote:

    I am glad you got the chance to stay in that place.

  • On May 3, 2009 Brian Martin Burkholder wrote:

    Lars,
    You have not been alone in remembering Matt and reflecting on his life and passions. Thanks for contributing your experiences and photos to the larger shared experience of losing Matt.
    Brian

  • On May 4, 2009 Loren Swartzendruber wrote:

    Thanks so much, Lars, for sharing your reflections about the beauty and peace of the place Matt experienced. I first learned of the song, “Lord, You Have Come to the Shoreline,” nearly 20 years ago when we sang it at the graveside of a friend/colleague who died of cancer while working at the former Mennonite Board of Missions. He, too, loved Central and South America. I can’t sing the song without thinking about and grieving the loss of both Jerry and Matt. Blessings, Loren

  • On May 4, 2009 Deb Garber wrote:

    Lars and Jon,
    I was so happy to see you made it to the mountain! It was a blessing to see pictures of the farm. It was just as I remembered it. This was the week I was with Matt in Costa Rica and seeing the pictures brought back even more sweet memories. Thanks for posting the beautiful picture of the beach, Playa Ventanas. Todd and I are looking forward to visiting there July 1st. Blessings to you, Deb

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